I’m Not A Child

Some people can be so annoying. Ugh!! I'm 23 years old, I can make my own decisions. It's like everyone wants to get in on it and I'm getting sick of it. Like anytime I talk to my mom or anyone else in my family, they tell me I need to be in a steady relationship and I need to provide a good life for this child if I decide to keep it.....no, really?! So I tell them, things are going a lot better, Vince has a full time job now so money will be better, and every time I say this they butt in and remark, "It's not all about the money." Ok, when I've been the one to support us for the last year and have been struggling the entire time with bills and everything else to do with money, it is ALL ABOUT THE MONEY!!! Vince and I are in a good relationship. We've been together for four years and plan to get married. Neither of us believe in divorce and we want to find a church we can raise our child in. We want our child to go to a smaller school so there won't be such an influence of drugs and alcohol associated with the larger schools. We've planned our lives out already, we just hit a bump in the road finding out I am pregnant. If we fight, it's only about money. Money is our issue!!

On another note, about this whole adoption thing, people say there are so many couples out there that want a child and can't have one. And I was thinking, if couples are so desperate for a child, do they know there are hundreds of children in foster care that want a family? I just don't get it. I understand that couples want a newborn, but there are young children in the foster care, not babies, but still young. Also, people who want children fly all the way to China to get kids when there are so many here already. I guess the Chinese children are cheaper and easier to adopt, but still...come on. Don't be telling me to give up my baby, a baby that I would love to raise as my own, when there are so many other options for couples out there. Ok, well thanks for letting me vent. Ahhhh.... I feel better now :)