Well the car has been acting up, just like I knew it would. Something bad had to happen. The tires were all messed up and the car shook really bad, it almost felt like a tire was about to fall off. My dad gave me a Christmas present early and paid for all new tires!! I love my dad. Unfortunately that isn't all. The brakes are bad and so the anti-lock brakes aren't working right now and my coolant is leaking somewhere, which means I have no heat. And that really sucks when I wake up at 5am to get to work. It's really cold in the morning and with no heat in the car, it doesn't make for a very pleasant drive. We have to keep adding more coolant to the radiator because I don't want to drive without heat when Logan is in the car.
Vince and I went shopping on Black Friday and it was actually pretty productive. We got almost half of all the presents bought, but some things we wanted to get were sold out before we got there. So I'll just have to find something else to buy for those family members, no big deal. It wasn't too bad either. Logan stayed at my parent's house Thanksgiving night so we wouldn't have to get him up in the middle of the night and take him to one of the grandparent's to be watched. I was actually surprised to see so many little kids out on Black Friday. We woke up at 3am and headed to Toys R Us. They had opened at midnight though and everything that we wanted to get there was sold out. So we headed to Sears which opened at 4am, got a few things. Next was Walmart. I was little nervous about going here since they are SOOO busy. The parking lot was packed so we parked at Radioshack instead. This year Walmart allowed people to stand next to the item they wanted, but weren't allowed to put anything in their carts until 5am. I got what I wanted since a lady in front of me grabbed two of this item(I can't say what because it's someone's present) and handed me one. See, there are civilized people who shop :) We stood in the checkout line for almost 45 minutes though because someone was complaining about the price of things and made someone go back and get her what she wanted. That was annoying. We went to Menards right across the street and got in and out pretty fast. At this point we were heading to get some breakfast and Vince noticed an SUV behind us that appeared to be passing us, but it just stayed in the other lane, hit a guard rail and almost hit an oncoming car, but got out of the way just in time by going into a ditch. I'm guessing he fell asleep, but that was kinda freaky. After that we went to Farm N' Fleet and got my tires, but stood in line for over an hour and then spent the afternoon at my parent's waiting for them to put my tires on. So all in all, it was a good day.
On my previous post, I talked about how Vince wasn't helping me out with house work and such. Make no mistake, he is a wonderful father. Logan loves him very, very much and it's so obvious. I've been making cereal for Logan in the morning and then he goes down for his first nap at which time I leave for work. When I come home, Vince has fed Logan his lunch and he's using real food :) He has a bottle and then has his afternoon nap. I get home soon after Logan wakes up and feeds him dinner. And we've discovered he LOVES table food. At Thanksgiving he had the works, turkey, stuffing, green beans, gravy, cranberrys and even some pumpkin pie...everything was all ground up of course. Now my issue is the sippy cup. I've bought two different cups. Nuk and Nubby. He doesn't like Nubby at all, but since his bottles are already Nuk he took to that one a little better, but now he's not liking it. I'm not sure what to do about this because I don't want him to use the bottle too much longer, he'll be one in three months. He also doesn't know how to tip his head back in order to get the drink when there isn't much in the cup. If I hold it, he can do it, but when he holds it..not a chance. Any ideas on that one?
Sunday, November 29, 2009
Sunday, November 22, 2009
Mommy Time
When Logan was first born, I loved holding him and being a stay at home mom and just being able to be with him all the time. I didn't think I would ever not want to be with him. Well, the time has come and honestly even thinking about it makes me feel like a bad mom. When I stayed at home I was able to take care of Logan and the house and not have to worry about the stress of work. Easy enough, but Logan was only a few months old too, makes a big difference. Once I got my job and then started going back to school, I HATED being away from Logan. I still do. But then Vince got laid off so he would take over my responsibilities...or so I thought. I go to school Mon-Thurs. I work Fri-Sun. I don't have a day where I can just lay around and say, "I have nothing to do today" On the days that I go to school, I feed Logan food..not bottles for every meal, which Vince likes to do and I keep telling him not to. That bugs me!! I also do the dishes, clean the house, play with Logan and check on my facebook. What a glamorous life :) I make dinner and then go to class for two and half hours and then come home. Sometimes Logan is in bed...sometimes not. On the days that I work, I get up and feed Logan while Vince is still sleeping..even though it's 9:30 in the morning. He doesn't need to be up all night on the computer. But this is only on the days I work at 10:30, when I work at 6am, Vince has to feed Logan breakfast, but he feeds him bottles because he's 'too tired to mix up some cereal and fruit for him'. Are you friggin kidding me?! I do it everyday, why can't he? Anway, on those days I come home from work and Vince hands Logan over to me and then expects me to take up my regular duties of cleaning and cooking dinner. Well I'm tired when I get home!!! I don't want to do dishes and make dinner, why couldn't he do that while I was working? It's not like I ask that much of him. Yes, Logan is a handful now that he's moving..but it's such a joy to be there with him. I would gladly trade spots with Vince...I want to be a stay at home mommy again. I've already missed a couple of firsts:( But Vince doesn't get that. Maybe it's just how men are.
My point is...I'm getting burnt out!! I need a break. Working and school and taking care of Logan. I never get a break. I just want one day all to myself. No Vince, no Logan, no work, no school, no nothing...but is that ever going to happen, doubtful. I wish for once I could come home to a clean house. I hate walking into the kitchen and there's dirty dishes and garbage and other crap. But Vince doesn't clean. And honestly this is wearing on my relationship. I haven't told him, but he can tell something is bothering me. I'm just so tired all the time. I can't believe I'm still up actually, but tomorrow is my day off so I want to enjoy my evening. Sometimes thinking about getting married isn't something I really want to do with Vince. I don't believe in divorce and once we're married, it's final. Don't try to tell me otherwise...that's how I was raised. Do I really want to be married to man that won't do little things for me to make me feel special? Or clean the house to suprise me, not even clean the house...clean one room, even that would be appreciated. I don't know, this blog isn't what I was planning on writing, it just sort of got here by itself. It's just something in the back of my mind, but I love Logan and I don't want him growing up going between houses. I would give up my happiness for him, but what parent wouldn't. Ok, I'm getting exhausted just writing this..I'm going to bed.
My point is...I'm getting burnt out!! I need a break. Working and school and taking care of Logan. I never get a break. I just want one day all to myself. No Vince, no Logan, no work, no school, no nothing...but is that ever going to happen, doubtful. I wish for once I could come home to a clean house. I hate walking into the kitchen and there's dirty dishes and garbage and other crap. But Vince doesn't clean. And honestly this is wearing on my relationship. I haven't told him, but he can tell something is bothering me. I'm just so tired all the time. I can't believe I'm still up actually, but tomorrow is my day off so I want to enjoy my evening. Sometimes thinking about getting married isn't something I really want to do with Vince. I don't believe in divorce and once we're married, it's final. Don't try to tell me otherwise...that's how I was raised. Do I really want to be married to man that won't do little things for me to make me feel special? Or clean the house to suprise me, not even clean the house...clean one room, even that would be appreciated. I don't know, this blog isn't what I was planning on writing, it just sort of got here by itself. It's just something in the back of my mind, but I love Logan and I don't want him growing up going between houses. I would give up my happiness for him, but what parent wouldn't. Ok, I'm getting exhausted just writing this..I'm going to bed.
Sunday, November 15, 2009
Time Flies
Once again I'm having trouble staying on top of my blog. Sorry. This past week at work has been somewhat eventful. I wasn't there at the time, but heard about this second hand. I guess one of the dishwashers came into work with swollen and blistered hands. He was sent home and the kitchen was quarantined. Management didn't let anyone know what was going on, just that they had to re sanitize the dishes, use antibacterial hand gel and use styrofoam dishes instead of the glass ones. The manager of the kitchen even told the workers that if she knew what was going on, she would tell us. That was a lie. One of the servers used to work at a day care where the kids broke out with these same rashes on their hands. She knew what it was and told others it was Hand, Foot and Mouth Disease. It is extremely contagious. The thing with it though is that kids are more likely to get this disease and yet none of the workers were told what was going on. Many of them have kids and could have taken it home to them. That would be terrible and yet they still expected servers to be ok with it. Yeah right!! I'm glad I wasn't there. How can you run a business and not let the workers know what is going on. Don't we have the right to know? I'm seriously getting sick and tired of this place!! I continue applying to other places, but still haven't gotten any bites. Hopefully soon.
On another note, Logan has had a rash for three weeks. I thought it was a diaper rash and was using desitin like crazy. It wasn't working. I called the doctor and they prescribed me some RX cream. So we tried that and then I did a little research and discovered Logan doesn't have just a normal rash, it's a yeast infection. So I call the doctor up the next day and tell them I think it's yeast and was told the cream I was prescribed works on yeast, but I should also try mixing in some hydrocortizone. Did that and then he started getting diarreha, which is making the rash worse and won't give it time to heal. So I call the doctor up again...by this time I really just wanted to go in, but they must be swamped with flu patients because they just gave me some directions over the phone. They said the diarrhea was probably a virual infection and it would just have to work it's way through. Come on!! Isn't there anything I can do for my little guy? I call my mom and she tells me to feed him the B-R-A-T diet. Banana, Rice cereal, Apple, Tea. This will help him get those nutrients back that he is losing while having diarrhea. I hope it's helping. I ran out of the prescription cream two days ago and go to get it refilled and was told that it's too soon. "You already used it up" is what I heard from the pharm tech. Ummm, yeah my baby has had this rash for 3 weeks, so I'm lathering him up!! Well, they can't do anything until Monday when they can call the doctor and see if they can get an override to give me his next refill so soon. I wasn't planning on waiting until Monday. I bought some clotrimazole instead. Someone suggested it to me, it's an antifungal cream and the pharmacist told me if the doctor would suggest something, it would be this stuff. So here we go again. I really want my baby to feel better. I hate seeing him like this. He screams and cries everytime I change his diaper, I know it must hurt :( If the diarrhea doesn't let up, there is no way this rash is going to get better. Just keep my little guy in your prayers.
On another note, Logan has had a rash for three weeks. I thought it was a diaper rash and was using desitin like crazy. It wasn't working. I called the doctor and they prescribed me some RX cream. So we tried that and then I did a little research and discovered Logan doesn't have just a normal rash, it's a yeast infection. So I call the doctor up the next day and tell them I think it's yeast and was told the cream I was prescribed works on yeast, but I should also try mixing in some hydrocortizone. Did that and then he started getting diarreha, which is making the rash worse and won't give it time to heal. So I call the doctor up again...by this time I really just wanted to go in, but they must be swamped with flu patients because they just gave me some directions over the phone. They said the diarrhea was probably a virual infection and it would just have to work it's way through. Come on!! Isn't there anything I can do for my little guy? I call my mom and she tells me to feed him the B-R-A-T diet. Banana, Rice cereal, Apple, Tea. This will help him get those nutrients back that he is losing while having diarrhea. I hope it's helping. I ran out of the prescription cream two days ago and go to get it refilled and was told that it's too soon. "You already used it up" is what I heard from the pharm tech. Ummm, yeah my baby has had this rash for 3 weeks, so I'm lathering him up!! Well, they can't do anything until Monday when they can call the doctor and see if they can get an override to give me his next refill so soon. I wasn't planning on waiting until Monday. I bought some clotrimazole instead. Someone suggested it to me, it's an antifungal cream and the pharmacist told me if the doctor would suggest something, it would be this stuff. So here we go again. I really want my baby to feel better. I hate seeing him like this. He screams and cries everytime I change his diaper, I know it must hurt :( If the diarrhea doesn't let up, there is no way this rash is going to get better. Just keep my little guy in your prayers.
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