Will Power

I hate that word. Like when you are trying to lose weight. People say that they don't have the will power to not eat their favorite food. It is hard resisting those yummy foods. I've been having a lot of trouble with it lately. But it's my own fault. I go to work at 10:30, I eat breakfast before I go and eat lunch on my break at work. Dinner is another story. I get off work between 7 and 7:30 pm. When I get home I hold Logan, do his nightly routine and put him to bed. Once that is all done with I get to eat dinner which is usually around 8:30. Bad I know especially since I'm pretty much exhausted by 10 and I'm in bed by 10:05. So, needless to say I've gained some weight and I hate it. It is so true once you have kids, it's hard to find any time for yourself. Plus that fact that I work and go to school and don't have time to do exercise. Well that is about to change. Today I ordered a dvd called "Jillian Michael's Shred" I've heard great reviews about it and that people actually lose weight. Someone even said it's such a good workout it replaces the gym and it's only a twenty-five minute dvd. That's what I'm looking for. So I will keep everyone updated on the progress and if I even get time to do it every day. Can't wait to get started!!

Things are Getting Better, Uh Oh

It seems like when too many things are going good in my life something has to happen to make it terrible. I have a job, it's not great, but it's a job. Vince is getting unemployment and is able to watch Logan while I work. We are slowly starting to catch up on bills. Now I'm just waiting for the car to break down or something. They did cut my hours at work, and I can't really be working only 20 hours a week. I was working full time and it was hard to be away from Logan, but we really need the money. We still need money, but now I'm spending a little more time with my baby. If Vince starts working though, I'm not sure what I'm going to do about Logan. Lately I've been working from 6-2 which I like so I can actually use some time in my day. Normally I work from 10:30-7 which sucks!! The problem is, I don't want to have to wake Logan up at 4:30 in order to get him to a sitter so I can be at work by 6. Which leaves me with one choice if Vince gets a job, I have to find another job with better hours. I spent 5 months looking for a job and was finally hired at Riverview. But now that I'm there, I don't really like it. The people are nice yeah, but the manager is really not manager material. They want the dining room to be like a restaurant, but they are ALWAYS out of stuff. If a real restaurant was out of food, customers would leave, but these people live here. I just don't really think she knows what she's doing. Plus she's only been there a few more weeks than me and the only reason she works at Riverview is because her mom is the administrator there. I applied at a place in Bartonville, but she hasn't called me back. I heard that Kroger in Morton is hiring, but I don't know if it's just part time. I NEED full time. I know it seems like I am never happy, but I'm just picky. I almost wish I could get my job back at Olive Garden. I like the people there and the money was good and I didn't even have to work full time. I tried earlier, but I guess they didn't need anybody. I wish money wasn't an issue. If I didn't have Logan, I wouldn't worry so much, but I really want to provide a good life for him, which also means I don't want to be working all the time in order to make the money. Does anyone know of a serving job that is hiring anywhere? I don't like serving, but it really is one of the best paying jobs out there for the hours. Well, I guess I'll stop my worrying for now and write about it later once something happens.