Am I Crazy?

This is a really random post, but I'm awake and this is what is on my mind. I have a constant fear of Logan dying. Is this normal? I really don't think so. I'm scared he's going to fall from the top of the stairs and break his neck. We have a gate, but it still worries me. I'm scared he's going to stop breathing and die in his sleep. I'm scared the crib will break(like the ones that are being recalled) and he will get stuck between the side of the crib and mattress and suffocate. I'm scared going out to the car in the dark, afraid that someone will shoot us. When I left him at my parents on Black Friday, I was scared something would happen to him even though I know my parents are very capable of taking care of a baby. I don't like having this fear. It doesn't keep me awake at night...well I guess tonight it is. I want to go check on him, but the door doesn't latch right so if I try and open his door it will be very noisy and wake him. And I can't leave it cracked open because the house isn't level and the door just swings wide open. Maybe it's the hormones, but it's been 9 months since I had him, shouldn't these hormones have subsided by now? I couldn't find anything online about this so I don't know what's bugging me. I just love him sooo much and would be heartbroken if anything ever happened to him. I don't think I would have such a fear about being shot if we didn't live in Peoria. I hate this city. Seriously, is there something wrong with me?