I know I just posted something a bit ago, but I've been thinking about Logan's one year party. The truth is I just want something small. I wish I could do it in our house, but it's not big enough or warm enough. Vince, Logan and I were at G&GB house yesterday and we got to talking about it and really want to have a big party. Invite all Vince's aunts and uncles and my aunts and uncles. But the thing is my family has never been into big parties for kids. I've never gone to a cousin's party(unless they were in my class and invited me) I don't think anyone would come and the one's that would might be uncomfortable because they don't know any of Vince's family and honestly have probably only met Logan once or twice. I don't know. Logan is my son and I'm the one who decides what to do. Vince wants a big party, I don't.
G&GB also said it would be great to have it a Chuck E Cheese because you can just call ahead and reserve tables. I saw online if you want to have a party provided by Chuck E Cheese it's like $10 a kid. But his mom just said you don't have to have a party through the restaurant. We'll see I guess. My mom keeps telling me that it's his first birthday and he won't remember it so there is no point to doing anything big. My problem is I try to please too many people and now two different people want two totally opposite things. I was thinking about asking my mom if we could have a small party at their house, but I don't think she would want any of Vince's relatives coming over(she doesn't like Vince's mom at all) This is stressing me out and it shouldn't be, this is for my little boy. I only have a couple months to decide what to do. I was also thinking about his cake. He isn't really into anything on tv, he'll watch it, but there isn't a favorite show yet. He really loves his books so I was thinking I might try and decorate his cake as a kids book. I'm not sure which one. And on top of everything else it's time I start looking around for some more gifts. Hopefully we'll have some more money by then. I saw this toy at Toys R Us that I really want to get him. I can't remember what it's called, but he could use it as a ride on toy or push it or even rock with it too. It was like $60 though so we'll see what we can do. I can't believe my little man is turning one already. Where did the time go??
Monday, January 4, 2010
Messy Boy
This was supposed to be yesterdays picture, but I wasn't able to get it uploaded because Vince was on the computer all night. Literally, he was up until like 4:30am.
This was the mess Logan left after he ate last night. Notice his tray isn't even on his chair. There are jars of food just laying around randomly. His wipes and some of his clothes have been pulled from the diaper bag. He took all the gears off of his toy there in the background. I think I've come to understand now why mothers with young children say their houses are never clean.
This was the mess Logan left after he ate last night. Notice his tray isn't even on his chair. There are jars of food just laying around randomly. His wipes and some of his clothes have been pulled from the diaper bag. He took all the gears off of his toy there in the background. I think I've come to understand now why mothers with young children say their houses are never clean.
Saturday, January 2, 2010
Picture This
So this mommy on a forum that I'm on is starting a blog where she posts a picture every day this year. There are lots of precious memories in photos so I decided I want to give it a try. I'm not great at posting photos though so this will give me something to strive for. And honestly, even though Logan is only going to be little once I sometimes forget to take photos of random things. So here we go.
Logan eating his puffs. Yes his chair is in our room because the main floor is freezing. He just recently started eating finger foods again because when he first started when he was a little younger he choked on a puff and refused to grab food anymore. I would put pieces of banana or bread in front of him and he would just put his mouth on the tray and try to eat it like a dog. I even would hold it for him so he could grab it out of my hand but he would just lean forward and eat it from my fingers. I tried again a couple days ago, putting puffs on his tray, and he actually ate them!! He almost choked on one, but he did fine after that. That's why this picture means a lot. Also, I love the fact that he crosses his little ankles when he eats, it's so cute :)
Logan eating his puffs. Yes his chair is in our room because the main floor is freezing. He just recently started eating finger foods again because when he first started when he was a little younger he choked on a puff and refused to grab food anymore. I would put pieces of banana or bread in front of him and he would just put his mouth on the tray and try to eat it like a dog. I even would hold it for him so he could grab it out of my hand but he would just lean forward and eat it from my fingers. I tried again a couple days ago, putting puffs on his tray, and he actually ate them!! He almost choked on one, but he did fine after that. That's why this picture means a lot. Also, I love the fact that he crosses his little ankles when he eats, it's so cute :)
Friday, January 1, 2010
Holidays
We had a pretty good Christmas..minus the fact that I had to work, but it wasn't bad. Logan wasn't even awake when I got home so Vince and I woke him up. But our celebrating actually started Christmas Eve. We went to Vince's parent's house to celebrate.
Here's my little man by Grandma's Christmas tree.
He got a lot of toys, but his favorite was actually some little plastic cars that linked together.
The one thing I would love to get Logan really would be a puppy. He absolutely loves animals and when we go to G&GB(Grandma and Grandpa Beeney) they have a little sheltie. He likes to lick Logan's fingers but tried to lick him in the mouth on Christmas Eve and I wasn't having that. Too bad though as there is no way I'm getting another dog while living in Peoria. I hate this city and I'm not dealing with them again when it has to do with dogs. We'll just have to wait until we move, which could be four years...ugh.
But anyway, so Christmas Vince and I wake Logan up and get him some breakfast and take him downstairs. We feed him in our bedroom now because the main floor is so cold. We hadn't put any of the presents under the tree until Christmas morning so this is what Logan saw.
There were more presents, I just didn't wrap them all. He wasn't at all interested in taking off the wrapping paper...maybe next year. He really liked the tunnel we got him, I was hoping he would. Going through the tunnel(sorry it's kinda blury)
It also came with a tent, but Logan wasn't really too keen on going into it.
Daddy finally got him to go in. I didn't really get a whole lot of other pictures though because he just wasn't real interested in them. Later that day we went to my parent's house. He got some nice gifts, but again...just not super interested. I'm really hoping next year he'll be able to enjoy it more. I'll try and update later with more information about what's going on with us too :)
Here's my little man by Grandma's Christmas tree.
He got a lot of toys, but his favorite was actually some little plastic cars that linked together.
The one thing I would love to get Logan really would be a puppy. He absolutely loves animals and when we go to G&GB(Grandma and Grandpa Beeney) they have a little sheltie. He likes to lick Logan's fingers but tried to lick him in the mouth on Christmas Eve and I wasn't having that. Too bad though as there is no way I'm getting another dog while living in Peoria. I hate this city and I'm not dealing with them again when it has to do with dogs. We'll just have to wait until we move, which could be four years...ugh.
But anyway, so Christmas Vince and I wake Logan up and get him some breakfast and take him downstairs. We feed him in our bedroom now because the main floor is so cold. We hadn't put any of the presents under the tree until Christmas morning so this is what Logan saw.
There were more presents, I just didn't wrap them all. He wasn't at all interested in taking off the wrapping paper...maybe next year. He really liked the tunnel we got him, I was hoping he would. Going through the tunnel(sorry it's kinda blury)
It also came with a tent, but Logan wasn't really too keen on going into it.
Daddy finally got him to go in. I didn't really get a whole lot of other pictures though because he just wasn't real interested in them. Later that day we went to my parent's house. He got some nice gifts, but again...just not super interested. I'm really hoping next year he'll be able to enjoy it more. I'll try and update later with more information about what's going on with us too :)
Wednesday, December 9, 2009
Am I Crazy?
This is a really random post, but I'm awake and this is what is on my mind. I have a constant fear of Logan dying. Is this normal? I really don't think so. I'm scared he's going to fall from the top of the stairs and break his neck. We have a gate, but it still worries me. I'm scared he's going to stop breathing and die in his sleep. I'm scared the crib will break(like the ones that are being recalled) and he will get stuck between the side of the crib and mattress and suffocate. I'm scared going out to the car in the dark, afraid that someone will shoot us. When I left him at my parents on Black Friday, I was scared something would happen to him even though I know my parents are very capable of taking care of a baby. I don't like having this fear. It doesn't keep me awake at night...well I guess tonight it is. I want to go check on him, but the door doesn't latch right so if I try and open his door it will be very noisy and wake him. And I can't leave it cracked open because the house isn't level and the door just swings wide open. Maybe it's the hormones, but it's been 9 months since I had him, shouldn't these hormones have subsided by now? I couldn't find anything online about this so I don't know what's bugging me. I just love him sooo much and would be heartbroken if anything ever happened to him. I don't think I would have such a fear about being shot if we didn't live in Peoria. I hate this city. Seriously, is there something wrong with me?
Sunday, November 29, 2009
I Knew It
Well the car has been acting up, just like I knew it would. Something bad had to happen. The tires were all messed up and the car shook really bad, it almost felt like a tire was about to fall off. My dad gave me a Christmas present early and paid for all new tires!! I love my dad. Unfortunately that isn't all. The brakes are bad and so the anti-lock brakes aren't working right now and my coolant is leaking somewhere, which means I have no heat. And that really sucks when I wake up at 5am to get to work. It's really cold in the morning and with no heat in the car, it doesn't make for a very pleasant drive. We have to keep adding more coolant to the radiator because I don't want to drive without heat when Logan is in the car.
Vince and I went shopping on Black Friday and it was actually pretty productive. We got almost half of all the presents bought, but some things we wanted to get were sold out before we got there. So I'll just have to find something else to buy for those family members, no big deal. It wasn't too bad either. Logan stayed at my parent's house Thanksgiving night so we wouldn't have to get him up in the middle of the night and take him to one of the grandparent's to be watched. I was actually surprised to see so many little kids out on Black Friday. We woke up at 3am and headed to Toys R Us. They had opened at midnight though and everything that we wanted to get there was sold out. So we headed to Sears which opened at 4am, got a few things. Next was Walmart. I was little nervous about going here since they are SOOO busy. The parking lot was packed so we parked at Radioshack instead. This year Walmart allowed people to stand next to the item they wanted, but weren't allowed to put anything in their carts until 5am. I got what I wanted since a lady in front of me grabbed two of this item(I can't say what because it's someone's present) and handed me one. See, there are civilized people who shop :) We stood in the checkout line for almost 45 minutes though because someone was complaining about the price of things and made someone go back and get her what she wanted. That was annoying. We went to Menards right across the street and got in and out pretty fast. At this point we were heading to get some breakfast and Vince noticed an SUV behind us that appeared to be passing us, but it just stayed in the other lane, hit a guard rail and almost hit an oncoming car, but got out of the way just in time by going into a ditch. I'm guessing he fell asleep, but that was kinda freaky. After that we went to Farm N' Fleet and got my tires, but stood in line for over an hour and then spent the afternoon at my parent's waiting for them to put my tires on. So all in all, it was a good day.
On my previous post, I talked about how Vince wasn't helping me out with house work and such. Make no mistake, he is a wonderful father. Logan loves him very, very much and it's so obvious. I've been making cereal for Logan in the morning and then he goes down for his first nap at which time I leave for work. When I come home, Vince has fed Logan his lunch and he's using real food :) He has a bottle and then has his afternoon nap. I get home soon after Logan wakes up and feeds him dinner. And we've discovered he LOVES table food. At Thanksgiving he had the works, turkey, stuffing, green beans, gravy, cranberrys and even some pumpkin pie...everything was all ground up of course. Now my issue is the sippy cup. I've bought two different cups. Nuk and Nubby. He doesn't like Nubby at all, but since his bottles are already Nuk he took to that one a little better, but now he's not liking it. I'm not sure what to do about this because I don't want him to use the bottle too much longer, he'll be one in three months. He also doesn't know how to tip his head back in order to get the drink when there isn't much in the cup. If I hold it, he can do it, but when he holds it..not a chance. Any ideas on that one?
Vince and I went shopping on Black Friday and it was actually pretty productive. We got almost half of all the presents bought, but some things we wanted to get were sold out before we got there. So I'll just have to find something else to buy for those family members, no big deal. It wasn't too bad either. Logan stayed at my parent's house Thanksgiving night so we wouldn't have to get him up in the middle of the night and take him to one of the grandparent's to be watched. I was actually surprised to see so many little kids out on Black Friday. We woke up at 3am and headed to Toys R Us. They had opened at midnight though and everything that we wanted to get there was sold out. So we headed to Sears which opened at 4am, got a few things. Next was Walmart. I was little nervous about going here since they are SOOO busy. The parking lot was packed so we parked at Radioshack instead. This year Walmart allowed people to stand next to the item they wanted, but weren't allowed to put anything in their carts until 5am. I got what I wanted since a lady in front of me grabbed two of this item(I can't say what because it's someone's present) and handed me one. See, there are civilized people who shop :) We stood in the checkout line for almost 45 minutes though because someone was complaining about the price of things and made someone go back and get her what she wanted. That was annoying. We went to Menards right across the street and got in and out pretty fast. At this point we were heading to get some breakfast and Vince noticed an SUV behind us that appeared to be passing us, but it just stayed in the other lane, hit a guard rail and almost hit an oncoming car, but got out of the way just in time by going into a ditch. I'm guessing he fell asleep, but that was kinda freaky. After that we went to Farm N' Fleet and got my tires, but stood in line for over an hour and then spent the afternoon at my parent's waiting for them to put my tires on. So all in all, it was a good day.
On my previous post, I talked about how Vince wasn't helping me out with house work and such. Make no mistake, he is a wonderful father. Logan loves him very, very much and it's so obvious. I've been making cereal for Logan in the morning and then he goes down for his first nap at which time I leave for work. When I come home, Vince has fed Logan his lunch and he's using real food :) He has a bottle and then has his afternoon nap. I get home soon after Logan wakes up and feeds him dinner. And we've discovered he LOVES table food. At Thanksgiving he had the works, turkey, stuffing, green beans, gravy, cranberrys and even some pumpkin pie...everything was all ground up of course. Now my issue is the sippy cup. I've bought two different cups. Nuk and Nubby. He doesn't like Nubby at all, but since his bottles are already Nuk he took to that one a little better, but now he's not liking it. I'm not sure what to do about this because I don't want him to use the bottle too much longer, he'll be one in three months. He also doesn't know how to tip his head back in order to get the drink when there isn't much in the cup. If I hold it, he can do it, but when he holds it..not a chance. Any ideas on that one?
Sunday, November 22, 2009
Mommy Time
When Logan was first born, I loved holding him and being a stay at home mom and just being able to be with him all the time. I didn't think I would ever not want to be with him. Well, the time has come and honestly even thinking about it makes me feel like a bad mom. When I stayed at home I was able to take care of Logan and the house and not have to worry about the stress of work. Easy enough, but Logan was only a few months old too, makes a big difference. Once I got my job and then started going back to school, I HATED being away from Logan. I still do. But then Vince got laid off so he would take over my responsibilities...or so I thought. I go to school Mon-Thurs. I work Fri-Sun. I don't have a day where I can just lay around and say, "I have nothing to do today" On the days that I go to school, I feed Logan food..not bottles for every meal, which Vince likes to do and I keep telling him not to. That bugs me!! I also do the dishes, clean the house, play with Logan and check on my facebook. What a glamorous life :) I make dinner and then go to class for two and half hours and then come home. Sometimes Logan is in bed...sometimes not. On the days that I work, I get up and feed Logan while Vince is still sleeping..even though it's 9:30 in the morning. He doesn't need to be up all night on the computer. But this is only on the days I work at 10:30, when I work at 6am, Vince has to feed Logan breakfast, but he feeds him bottles because he's 'too tired to mix up some cereal and fruit for him'. Are you friggin kidding me?! I do it everyday, why can't he? Anway, on those days I come home from work and Vince hands Logan over to me and then expects me to take up my regular duties of cleaning and cooking dinner. Well I'm tired when I get home!!! I don't want to do dishes and make dinner, why couldn't he do that while I was working? It's not like I ask that much of him. Yes, Logan is a handful now that he's moving..but it's such a joy to be there with him. I would gladly trade spots with Vince...I want to be a stay at home mommy again. I've already missed a couple of firsts:( But Vince doesn't get that. Maybe it's just how men are.
My point is...I'm getting burnt out!! I need a break. Working and school and taking care of Logan. I never get a break. I just want one day all to myself. No Vince, no Logan, no work, no school, no nothing...but is that ever going to happen, doubtful. I wish for once I could come home to a clean house. I hate walking into the kitchen and there's dirty dishes and garbage and other crap. But Vince doesn't clean. And honestly this is wearing on my relationship. I haven't told him, but he can tell something is bothering me. I'm just so tired all the time. I can't believe I'm still up actually, but tomorrow is my day off so I want to enjoy my evening. Sometimes thinking about getting married isn't something I really want to do with Vince. I don't believe in divorce and once we're married, it's final. Don't try to tell me otherwise...that's how I was raised. Do I really want to be married to man that won't do little things for me to make me feel special? Or clean the house to suprise me, not even clean the house...clean one room, even that would be appreciated. I don't know, this blog isn't what I was planning on writing, it just sort of got here by itself. It's just something in the back of my mind, but I love Logan and I don't want him growing up going between houses. I would give up my happiness for him, but what parent wouldn't. Ok, I'm getting exhausted just writing this..I'm going to bed.
My point is...I'm getting burnt out!! I need a break. Working and school and taking care of Logan. I never get a break. I just want one day all to myself. No Vince, no Logan, no work, no school, no nothing...but is that ever going to happen, doubtful. I wish for once I could come home to a clean house. I hate walking into the kitchen and there's dirty dishes and garbage and other crap. But Vince doesn't clean. And honestly this is wearing on my relationship. I haven't told him, but he can tell something is bothering me. I'm just so tired all the time. I can't believe I'm still up actually, but tomorrow is my day off so I want to enjoy my evening. Sometimes thinking about getting married isn't something I really want to do with Vince. I don't believe in divorce and once we're married, it's final. Don't try to tell me otherwise...that's how I was raised. Do I really want to be married to man that won't do little things for me to make me feel special? Or clean the house to suprise me, not even clean the house...clean one room, even that would be appreciated. I don't know, this blog isn't what I was planning on writing, it just sort of got here by itself. It's just something in the back of my mind, but I love Logan and I don't want him growing up going between houses. I would give up my happiness for him, but what parent wouldn't. Ok, I'm getting exhausted just writing this..I'm going to bed.
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