A Baby Story

Wow, things have been crazy!! As most of you know, I was due on Feb. 19 and have just been waiting around for the little guy to make his appearance. On Monday, I had an appointment with my OB and was planning on talking with her about getting induced since she was going to be leaving for vacation on Thursday and I really wanted to have her deliver Logan. I was worried about using pitosin though because my mom told when they induced her and used pitosin, it was very hard on her body and it might have the same effect on me. So I go in on Monday and nothing has really changed so she asks what I want to do and I tell her I would like to get him out because I wanted her to deliver him. She also said that he was facing the wrong way and that might cause some problems as well. I mentioned my concern about pitosin and she told me they would give me a pill orally to try and start contractions and if it wasn't working good enough then they would start pitosin. So she called the hospital and told me I could head over to Methodist right away. I called Vince up and told him I had to come and pick him up from work, since I had driven him to work so I could use to car to go to the OB. We grabbed some lunch and my bags and headed to Methodist and got there around noon. I was getting super scared though because I just didn't really know what to expect.

They started me out on my medicine and was told I would be given 4 doses every 4 hours. So it was pretty much a waiting game from then on. Around 10 that night the contractions finally started. I couldn't sleep at all that night cause the pain just kept getting worse, but I really wanted to do this without an epidural. They started the pitosin at 7am the next morning and then my midwife came in and broke my water. I couldn't deal with the pain and they said they could give me something called neomorphin (sp?), so I opted for that. I was worried that it might affect the baby, but they were saying such a small amount goes in that he would be fine. Since the baby was facing the wrong way I was having back labor and people say this is the worst kind, I believe them. It was very painful!! The drug they gave me helped me to sleep as well and while I was sleeping a group of nurses came in and told me I needed me to lay on my back because the baby's heart rate had dropped, I looked at the monitor and it was really low. When laying on my back didn't work they told me to lay on my other side and gave me oxygen. His heart rate started to go up a little so the nurses left again. About a half hour later they came back and told me his heart rate had dropped again and made me get on my elbows and knees along with the oxygen. I was getting so scared by now. What was happening to my baby? I was able to lay on my side soon after and the Dr. came in and told me if things didn't start progressing they would have to do a c-section. They turned off the pitosin drip and I was in so much pain by now I told them I wanted the epidural. So much relief after that, no more pain!! The baby's heart rate went back up and I was doing contractions on my own without the drugs. Come to find out it was the pitosin that caused the baby's heart rate to drop. I knew I had a reason to worry about that stuff!!

Things were progressing really well, but I was stuck on 9 cm and they wouldn't let me push until I was fully dilated. My epidural was starting to wear off and I made Vince go get a nurse. I said I needed more epidural because it was hurting so bad!! They came and gave me another dose and all was well again. I was stuck on 9 cm for a few hours and then a nurse came in and had me push and just moved the rest of the cervix out of the way, just like that!! Ugh! I started pushing at 7:15pm and didn't get the baby out until 10:13 pm. So in all I was in labor for 24 hours and pushed for 3 hours. I don't plan on having anymore kids anytime soon, lol!! Logan Frederick Beeney weighed 7 lbs 12 oz and 19 1/2 inches long. Just right. My midwife told me she was so proud of me because she didn't think I would make it this far, she figured I would have to have a c-section. I am so happy it's all over and now I have my little baby.

Vince said when they took Logan to the nursery for the first time he pooped right away all over his blankets, lol!! He has some skin tags on his ear and they said that could indicate kidney problems. They did a sonogram on him and everything came up normal. They were keeping an eye on him though because he wasn't urinating like they wanted him to. He only peed once the whole time we were at the hospital and that was from them having to sprinkle warm water on him to make him go. The first night we were home he peed once during the night and that was it. So in all only two times in the three days he had been alive :( They kept telling me that breastfeeding is the way to go and I was planning on doing that the whole time. He latched really easily, but my milk still hadn't come in so that may have been a reason for him not peeing. The nurses told me I didn't have to supplement him with formula because what he was getting from me was good enough. The pediatrician however said I should give him some formula and I guess he told the nurses this to, but they never told me and so never gave me any formula to take home. A couple of premixed batches, but not enough to really supplement him. So I just kept breastfeeding and he was crying all the time, the entire first night. I did end up giving him some of the premixed stuff the nurses gave me because I really needed to sleep but I felt so guilty for doing it. I had an appointment set up for Logan on Friday to see the pedi. and asked my mom to come with. They weighed him and he had lost almost a pound! My poor little guy, the pedi got after me for not giving him formula, but from what the nurses told me, I thought I was doing exactly what I should be. I almost cried right in front of him, I felt so bad and humiliated. I felt like I starved my poor little man. The pedi gave me some formula to take home and told me to feed him every 2-3 hours. I have to go back on Monday to make sure he is gaining weight. I'm just so worried now that I'm giving him formula that my milk will never come in. I try breastfeeding him first and if he's still fussy I give him formula, but it just doesn't feel like I will ever get my milk. I'm really upset about it, but at least Logan isn't starving now. He didn't pee at all last night and he hadn't peed in over 24 hours. The pedi called to check up on me today and I told him Logan still hadn't peed and he told me if he still hadn't by this evening I need to take him to the ER, there could be something wrong with his kidneys. When I gave Logan his bath, soon after hanging up with the pedi, he did finally pee!! I hope he keeps it up. I'm just so worried about the little guy, I hope I'm doing everything right. He is sleeping better though so I will take that as a good sign :)

Anywho, a few other things have been going on as well. While I was at the hospital Vince hooked up the new kitchen faucet and now I have working sink, yeah!! He and has dad had been working on the plumbing all week and the faucet was the finishing touch. Vince also worked on the fence outside and made it very secure. He kicked the dogs out so when I came home, I wouldn't have to worry about them anymore. Well, T-Bone dug a hole underneath the fence and escaped while we were at the hospital and he is long gone. I really don't care anymore, that dog had way too much energy and if he is going to go running off all the time then I don't want to deal with him. Who knows where he is now, but I'm not paying another $100 to get him out of PAWS if they catch him. We've already wasted enough money on these stupid dogs! And my priorities have changed a little as well, my baby is WAY more important than any animal. Pillow is still outside and she's staying out there even though she is constantly crying and has already ripped the screen on the screen door to shreds. I am really starting to wonder why I ever wanted a dog. Also, Vince and I were looking forward to our tax refunds because I was going to pay all the bills for the following month with my return and we were going to save all of Vince's return to pay for Logan's needs. There was something in the mail yesterday that said the government is taking all of Vince's tax returns to pay for his debt owed on child support!! All of that money is gone now. This is not what I needed right after having a baby. He won't be caught up next year with his child support either, since he has to back pay for a full year so that means I will have to work and claim Logan so his stupid, selfish ex won't get next year's tax returns too!!! So now I'm really torn on what to do. My tax returns won't be enough to pay the bills and for Logan and unfortunately, if we don't pay the bills then we won't have electricity and we need that for obvious reasons. Money wasn't supposed to be a worry right now with Logan. I have enough to worry about with him, I don't need this extra stress.