Working Mom

Money has been extremely tight for us right now. Vince just isn't bringing home enough money to pay all the bills. We were doing ok until the child support started and then it got bad. After that the CILCO bill skyrocketed up and now I am on a payment plan, but it requires us to pay $250 a month for a year and that's a lot for us. That's bigger than a week's check for Vince. So I am planning on going back to work. First, I'm going to try Olive Garden and see if they will let me back. I know that people aren't going out to eat as much so I'm a little worried about being able to get my job back. I didn't exactly quit for maternity leave, I quit in July and was only a month pregnant at the time, but the smell of the food made me sick. I just hope the managers are understanding enough to let me back. *fingers crossed* I would like to just work part time because I don't want to leave Logan while he is still so young. I'm going to have to work nights though so Vince can watch him after he gets off work. My worry is, I will have a work a Sunday shift, that's just a mandatory thing they do if you aren't working Mon-Fri and Vince says he doesn't want to watch Logan on Sunday night because he has to get up early on Monday for work. Well boohoo!!! I get up with him every frickin' morning to make him breakfast and it's not like I get to go back to sleep once Vince leaves for work. Logan gets up about the same time that Vince leaves so I take care of him for a few hours until he falls asleep and then I start trying to clean the house. So it's not like I'm just sitting around on my butt all day at home doing nothing!! Vince is so stubborn and Logan is just like him already, I can tell. He fights me when I try and burp him and he screams bloody murder when I change his diaper. There is no way I am going to hire a babysitter to watch Logan on Sunday night because I don't know anybody. Plus I'm not going to trust just anybody with my baby. Vince seriously needs to grow up!!! But if it comes down to it, I may need to find someone to watch him on Sunday nights. So if any of my readers would like to baby sit on Sundays I would be really grateful :)

Logan is doing good, he eats like a pig. I nurse him and he is still always hungry after he's finished with me so I'm always making him a bottle. I hope my breastpump comes soon. I'm getting tired of waiting for this thing. Yesterday I went to the grocery store and took Logan with me. He was such a good little boy in the store, all quiet, just watching the lights on the ceiling as I walked around. Once we got into the car and on our way home, he started screaming. A couple days ago and had kicked his little legs so hard, he cut his heal on the car seat and I was worried about him being fussy in the car because I didn't want him hurting himself. I had socks on him, so I thought he would be ok. Well on the way home, he wouldn't stop screaming and when I finally get back to our house the street is lined with cars and our stupid neighbor is parked right in front of my house even though he has a driveway he can park in. Stupid idiot!! So I have to park a ways away and carry my screaming baby into the house. I wanted to tell the neighbor off, but I just gave his wife a dirty look(she was still sitting in the car). I get in the house and yell for Vince to watch Logan so I can go get the groceries. I come back in and Vince is cuddling Logan and says "He cut his heal open" I look at the car seat and there is blood all over the spot that his little foot was. I started bawling!! My poor baby!! I washed him up and put some Neosporin and a band-aid on him and then called my mom and cried to her. He just has such a strong kick. Logan is starting to get fussy so that's all for now.